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Being a Mom is scary… July 18, 2008

Wednesday started off normal enough, Kendal and I overslept and started the morning with a late breakfast for Kendal. After she ate, the stress started.

Kendal spit up blood! Seriously, I caught it all on a burp cloth. (I’ll save you from the photo.)

So, obviously we went straight into the doctor. Dr. Alber was great about the whole thing, but since there doesn’t seem to be anything wrong with K (other than spitting up blood of course), he could only chalk it up to some fluky thing. He gave a number of things it could be, but she would be in obvious pain. So, the simple suggestion about the most likely cause is me. More likely than not, she probably got some blood from me in her milk and just happened to spit up (like she always does). “No offense,” the doctor said. “We’d rather it be from you.” None taken doc! Me too!

So, we head home and Mommy’s heart is starting to slow down. After some lunch (with no bloody spit up), time for a nap.

45 mins into the nap I hear a beep… “Was that…” I check on the baby and she seems fine. A few minutes later (back on the couch), I hear it again, “beep.” This time I am sure, and I fly into K’s room. This time I rub her back, she wiggles and I breathe a sigh of relief (sort of). I stand there watching for a few minutes and it happens again, a few more minutes pass and it happens a 4th time. Now, I am worried.

So, back to the couch, clutching my monitor I start Goggling the baby monitor (by the way, in case you don’t know what this mysterious beep that is freaking me out is, it is the warning beep that the AngelCare monitor has not detected any movement from the baby in 20 seconds. In other words, it hasn’t detected her breathing in 20 seconds. You get 1 warning beep and if no movement a full blown alarm. So far, each time it has beeped, she has moved and reset it. So, is she not breathing or is it malfunctioning?). I sit down with my friend Google and BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP!!!!

FULL BLOWN ALARM!!!!!

I run back to Kendal’s side (by now the alarm has stopped) and there she is sucking on her paci. By now I am crying, so I call Bobby and he agrees to come home early. I got back to Goggle and find many posts about false alarms, especially if the baby has scooted to the conner (which she had). A big thunder clap wakes K up, and I take the opportunity to move her back to the middle for the rest of her nap, which goes by with no more alarms. Chalk it up to a false alarm.

Thursday, I wake up with a migraine. Probably a result of all of the stress. So, Kendal and I spend the day in bed. By the time Daddy comes home, the pain has dulled and Kendal and I venture out to the family room for dinner. After dinner, Bobby was in the other room, I was sitting on the couch and Kendal was in her swing when I hear her wheezing!!! Yes, wheezing – very distinctive! I scream for Bobby and we sit there listening to her wheeze.

I grab the phone and call the late night clinic. At 7:45, we are on our way to the doctor. Of course, by the time we arrive at the doctor, she has stopped. The doctor checks her out and she seems to be fine. The only conclustion is that she might be coming down with a little cold or something. I feel a little better, but not much. I stayed up till 1 am listening to K breathe…

This morning she is doing it again. She goes in and out of periods of wheezing. But she still doesnt appear to really be struggling, she is still babbling away – just wheezing to suck in her breath. Since there is really no change,  I don’t think we will rush to the doctor right now, but I did video her wheezing in case I decide to take her. This time I will have something to show the doctor.

I feel like a crazy mom. But I swear up till now, she has been a picture perfect healthy baby. So, this is very stressful. Since I am asthmatic, I know what it is like to have trouble breathing so I just feel so awful for her. Poor K!